One Month

I have lived in Tahoe City, CA for one month from this coming Tuesday... Its hard to believe how fast time is moving!!
Right now I am laying in bed, where I have been since Friday night, thanks to my nasty kids and their flu germs. I am feeling much much MUCH better than I did yesterday at this time. Something about being so far away from home and running a 101 fever that just brings a person down. But I'm back to thinking clearly (well clear for me :]) and I am hoping to feel perfect by tomorrow morning!
This month has been a crazy little roller coaster ride, but here is what I have learned: life on Earth is a roller coaster!! I don't know why it's taken me this long to figure it out, but whatever. I am clinging on to Christ and allowing Him to be my ultimate comfort and peace. It's not easy.... But I am trying!
My pastor's wife passed away 2 weeks ago from tomorrow. The Chi Alpha leader from my freshman year passed away a week ago from tomorrow. Add that to all of the deaths that have happened this summer and you are left with a question that goes something like "what is going on in the world???" I had a nightmare the other night where I was screaming for my aunt to save people but everyone just kept dying.... Intense to say the very least! The tossing/turning/nightmares continued until this really wonderful and wise friend of mine told me to read 1 Kings 19... I wept when I read it because it hit me like a ton of bricks. I still can not put into words all that God said to me through those words, but I have peace. I can rest. I am His and He loves me and He's got it all under control.
So I was offered a position here in Tahoe that would keep me here for awhile. I ask for your prayers on this matter! I never, ever want to make a decision based on feelings or my own thought process... I want to be where God wants me to be.
I have learned sooo much the last month, but I am having a hard time thinking clearly right now... Maybe its the nyquil! :( I will post again asap!
Thank you for all of the prayers and support!!! For those of you who have sent letters, you will never know how much they mean!! :)