More lessons learned

"Everywhere is the sorrow and the pain of empty living, you can see it, look in their eyes all the hopelessness of the world but look closer He is right there in the midst of every fear"

-"The River" by Meredith Andrews

For your nearness Lord I hunger

For your nearness Lord I wait

Hold me ever closer Father

Such a love I can't escape

For your nearness I am hoping

For your nearness Lord I long

Have no need of any other

I have found where I belong

Yes, I have found where I belong

So draw me nearer Lord

Never let me go

Closer to your heart

Draw me nearer Lord

Draw me nearer Lord

In your nearness there is healing

What was broken now made whole

Restoration in its fullness

Lasting hope for all who come

In your nearness I take shelter

Where you are is where I'm home

I have need of only one thing

To be here before your throne

- "Draw me Nearer" by Meredith Andrews

I am on a Meredith Andrew kick if you couldn't tell! :) The lyrics to these songs are so powerful and so beautiful! (I have also fallen in love with the new Sara Bareilles CD! Soo good!)

I am still in bed recovering from the nasty virus I picked up last week, but I am thankful that God has given me this time. I have been able to write letters to people that I have wanted to write for weeks. I have looked at old pictures and remembered that I have a REALLY awesome support system back home. I have thought back to awesome memories with the many people that have passed away this summer. I needed this time to sit still and be quiet before the King. (For once, I am thankful that Megan picked my bunk as the one that is behind the TV because I am not wasting precious time! :)) I have been able to grow closer to God through a time of sickness, being far from home, and struggling to remember my purpose.
I woke up yesterday and I was struggling with feeling like a leper. You know how much I rely on relationships with people and for me to be stuck in a bed for 4 days straight is an absolute nightmare. I have been so frustrated. I know no one wants to get sick and I know that it is for my own good and the good of everyone at A+ that I stay in bed, but it is so hard! Here is what God has taught me: Jesus always ministered to the outcasts, sick, and hurting. He never shied away or went the other way! He met them where they were and ministered to them. So, He is doing the same for me. He is holding my hand and sitting in my bed with me the way I wish my mama, Sadie Grace, Miss Molly and my precious friends could do right now. He is talking to me and letting me ask Him hard questions. He is teaching me that He is all I need and that I can always count on Him... no matter what's going on in the world or how sick I get. What a great God!!! I am learning that He is in control and is too Sovereign to allow me, the mess of a human that I am, to mess up His plans. I will sit and wait for Him. In the mean time, I will serve like I know how. Love like I know how. Encourage like I know how. He will pick me up and move me when He sees fit. He will put people in my life when He see fit. He will take people Home when He sees fit. I am the servant and He is the master. Why do I keep trying to control everything?? There's peace in knowing that I can do nothing at all without Him!