Today was the commission service for the students I talked about in my last blog... Time is flying by!
As I stood in the back while 90 colleges students were being commissioned, I could not help but to be an emotional wreck. I am so excited to see where God is taking those students and how HE is going to change their lives and others. I was so happy because I know the feeling of being a part of that service and the feeling of knowing that summer is so close. I was nervous because last year I knew when I was going to leave, and now I have no clue. I was sad because my name wasn't called when they said South Korea. I was sad because this was the last time I would gather with my BCM friends from across the state. Oh man.... Its such a strange time! I know that God is in control and I guess that's exactly why I didn't cry, but I can't help but be on edge. :)
God has changed me so much through my college years. I cant believe its already been 4 years! Four years of wonderful friends, hard lessons, class after class, lesson plan after lesson plan, dorms and apartments, weekends packed full of fun, from state to state. Wow. Did all of that really happen? :) I look back and imagine my first days on campus and laugh because I remember feeling so homesick and this complete fear that I was going to flunk out and never make friends. I did not even want to be in college. God had different plans! :) I will graduate in 4 weeks with a pretty good GPA and more friends ( from all over the world! :)) than I could ever count. God is so good. HIS will is perfect. I'm nervous/anxious about growing up and graduating but I'm sooo excited about the future because I know that I'm NEVER alone... I bet HE has some pretty cool stuff lined up! :)
