Just this last week, I received confirmation that I will be going to spend one year with my sweet Koreans! I received the e-mail early one morning when I was getting ready to go teach my precious Pre-K class, and honestly, I shouted for joy! If you have talked to me in the last month, you have probably heard me request prayer about this matter. I have known that I WANT to go back to Korea, but I still sure what GOD WANTED for me. I knew that in His own perfect timing He would reveal His perfect plan to me, but it's very hard for me to be patient sometimes.... Especially when graduation is just weeks away! I didn't want to be that person that is sitting at graduation and still wondering what in the World I'm going to be doing. This, of course, was just me trying to control a life that belongs to the One who created the whole Universe. He's got it all under control... ALL the time! :)
So the planning for a year in Korea has begun. I will soon be receiving my placement and will be buying my plane ticket and insurance and I have told my family... and I am SO thankful that they trust God and believe that He will talk me wherever He leads me. I am so beyond blessed to have a family that trully supports me with whatever it is I am doing. I will say that telling my grandmother was a completely different experience.... Hardest thing I think I have done in a long time! We started the conversation by talking about The Bachelor ( of course we both agree that Vienna needs to leave!) and then I tried to make a smooth transition into telling her that I will be leaving for a year.... Not smooth! I heard her gasp for air and say "Oh Laura!". I continued telling her that I will be in a safe place that has hospitals and plenty of food (the thing any granny worries about for their babies! :)). I told her that it is only one year and we can manage to do anything for one year! As she began to talk, I could hear the tremble in her voice... The sound that has the power to break any heart! She said "I will not ever say I am happy about this, but I will tell you that I always want you to be happy." Not exactly what I wanted to hear... And that is when I began to cry. I know that this sweet lady loves me with all of her heart, and I am so thankful that she does! It just makes it so hard to know that I am "disappointing" her by not staying in Tennessee and getting a comfortable job and living in a comfortable house close to comfortable people. I love that lady and would never want to do anything against her... But when I feel that going with what she "demands" is going against God... It's time to call it quits! I MUST obey God with all of my being. I am HIS! This life is not my own. I will, until He calls me HOME, work with all I am to strive to glorify God through knowing Him and making Him known to others of ALL nations. I trust Him... with my everything! I want the world to see that... I hope the world sees that.
I'm praying for Manna to fall into North Korea so that the people will not continue to starve... But even more than that... I am praying that God sends workers into that mission field so that the people will not have to go another day without knowing about The Father (Abogee) who loves them and wants to show them true and everlasting joy. My God is BIG enough to do all!
The (uncomfortable) Cost of being His Disciple:
"If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters-- yes, even his own life- he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple." Luke 14:26-27
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